So. I am fat. That is the purpose behind this redesigned blog. It has taken me a long time to admit that my weight is getting out of control and it has taken even longer to get myself motivated to do something about it.
I am not proud of the way I have let myself go. In fact, it disgusts me. I am uncomfortable in my own skin and there are some days I would rather stay in my pajamas than get dressed since these are the only clothes I am really comfortable in.
I had let myself go to a point that I finally realized if I keep letting it go this way, I am going to be beyond help.
I don't blame anyone for my weight gain, although I think there are some things that contributed to my getting as big as I was during pregnancy with out the pregnancy.
I was made manager of a finance company and they moved my family and I to the Chicago suburbs. During the course of my employment there, I worked with two women that were both over 350 pounds. Believe me, that will change your eating habits if nothing will. I began a horrible habit of eating out EVERYDAY. McDonalds, Arbys, gyros, chinese buffets...YUM. Hence the weight I was at 3 weeks ago.
Three weeks ago I started Weight Watchers. Of course, like any other diet or weight loss plan, I was skeptical going in. In the first week I lost 3.4 pounds!! I was SO EXCITED!!! I have since lost a total of 8.6 pounds in the last three weeks and I already feel better. I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that I am finally DOING something about it. I am eating healthier and I am SO PROUD to say that I have not eaten out at any fast food spot (with the exception of Subway) in almost four weeks!!! I have given up my beloved Pepsi (with the exception of a once a week splurge on one whole can) and switched to water with Crystal Light or Coke Zero. I would love to stay loyal to Pepsi, but BLECK!! Diet Pepsi is HORRIBLE!! I try and try to drink plain water, but it is so hard for me.
In beginning to see results already, I re-began my Walk Away the Pounds regime from 2008. I have no ability to do the complex steps that are involved in most aerobic programs, but I do enjoy the videos that Leslie Sansone has done. You get a really great workout and all in your living room. I am pretty sure that everyone knows how to walk so there you go. No difficult steps to master. No embarrassing movements at the gym. Today I walked 3 fast miles and sweated like a hog...damn it felt great.
I am sure there are some of you who will sympathize with my plight. I am sure there are some of you that feel the same way I did. How do I start? Am I beyond help?? Is it even possible?? As I said at the beginning, it will not be fun and it will not be easy, but I am DETERMINED to get back to a healthy weight and be comfortable in my own skin again. To be able to shop for clothes like a regular human being. To not constantly buy clothes that will cover and/or hide my fat belly. I am also sure that there are some of you that are even beyond the weight that I let myself get to. That doesn't matter. You will feel a BILLION times better if you just decide to DO SOMETHING about it.
I honestly can't wait to be weighed in every Wednesday. Keep an eye on this blog and watch me journey back to Skinnyland!!
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